ignore the title if u don't get it, it's from a song that I've been listening to on replay by SHE, it's sort of a motivating song for me to carry on day by day, gives me some sort of hope that there'll be better days. I've realized that there are many songs to listen to bring up hope and faith, and to encourage u to not give up. kinda need these songs lately cause i've gotta admit, I'm not strong enough. this morning had a hang over, and clearly cried alot since I woke up with trouble opening my eyes and they were swollen lol. it's just a phase I always say. pfft! I didn't hurt myself though! haha.. but some drunk girl with extremely high pink heels had to kick my leg and now I'm left with a blueblack! ggrr.. I remember her shoes because she kicked me just right after I enter the club! lmao.. oh anyway, last night I went to this club on hindley called the City. there are so many unique names of clubs here! there's HQ, Redsquare, London, Heaven-no seriously they designed the place to look like a church or something idk cause I haven't been haha.. and etc etc lol going to pubs here really defeats the purpose to chill and socialize, they play loud music just like a club! hmm.. so what's the diff other than having more chairs? lol
oh, great news! I'm gonna make a short trip back to Msia on the 12th! real short one, gonna come back on the 21st. sigh.. honestly, I rather be in Msia with all I have back there than to spend my own life here. sure it's great to experience overseas, earn the money here, learn to be independent which I personally think I have not, not my level of independence lol. I am glad to have met ppl from other countries cause I was caught up in my own world, the msian world lol. met great friends here, lost some too. sadly, the ppl I lost, are msians. and the closest friends I can count on here aren't msians. WTF?! not that I'm saying u can't count on ppl from other countries, but hello, aren't the ppl from the same nation suppose to stick together and have our backs? but, anyway, sensitive issue, im just glad I actually have a few friends to look forward meeting in my days here, not many, but i've learnt my lesson, many doesn't necessarily mean good at all. yeah u may get lonely and may seem needy, but if they are ur true friends, why would they mind knowing u need them?
oh but i've also met a few, sorry to say, bitches here! ohwgawd, they are really awful! over confident and they are so not afraid of ppl knowing it. and will spray it in ur face everytime u see them. don't even talk abt courtesy man, they have none! what's so nice abt bring ppl around u down with what ure gifted with? does it get u an award or something. urgh.. I really can't stand these ppl. I know I make fun of myself often and may seem as though I wont bite, but oh pls don't go off the border, it doesn't give YOU the right to criticize or make fun of me. when I burst, don't ask me why and go reflect on urself instead of blaming others. urgh..
on another note, finally started my packing and I'm almost done with it! 2years plus worth of stuff is really alot, but then again, it's not my first time shifting and some of my stuff are still in a box or bag. sigh.. gonna have my own place this time, hmm.. wonder how it's gonna be. I'm really not the type of person that wants more alone time. yeah I do enjoy it, but not all the time~ especially after a break up, ooo.. bad timing to be alone dontchathink? lol gawd knows where my mind would wonder~ hmm.. trying to look on the bright side and somehow psycho myself to accept it. like the fact that I don't have to share any of my stuff, I don't have to save up space for my roommate, I can sleep without anyone disturbing me, etc etc~ lol I guess it'd be good. =) oh and I'm planning to take up a hobby! making desserts! haha.. well, provided I have the time to do so~ would be great if I can find a decent job instantly cause my rent is REALLY high and it's abt time I've taken up my responsibility for my own and not relying on my parents, at least not financially. being the youngest and having a huge age gap really isn't a good thing, but then again, it wouldn't be me if I came any earlier into this world.
I guess that's all I have to say for now, FYI, I've been using my iPhone for 2days now to online! computer's already in the bag and I don't intend to take it out until I shift lol. really is tiring actually with such a small device to type and all, but~ I'm not complaining. thank god for iPhones seriously, it's my life saver! lol it's my first apple product and I love it! but anyway, arm hurts from lying down typing somehow lol! it's a sign of old age I'm telling u! lmao.
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