here i am

It's another new year! anyone feel any difference? i sure do! LOL comparison to 2011. last year was crazy, i practically rushed my year through. it was exhausting with all the events that has happened then. hmm.. let's see, it was my last semester, so studied most of my days and nights away. *i tried lol then there was the whole shifting incident, then graduation. and then came 2 part time jobs. lol both very different, one's a japanese restaurant called Sushi Train (some may say that it's in the fast food category) and the other's a indian fine dining restaurant called Arya. haha.. it was tiring, practically worked day and night for roughly 4months. but it was nice to know i had something to do everyday, and i met lots of awesome new friends, and learned quite alot abt the cultures and of course food haha. many good and funny memories and of course there are bad ones too, but overall its all good. =) countless times i almost spoke japanese in the indian restaurant! =x for example, onegaishimas, which means pls and thank you or something like that when someone does something for you or when u're asking for help. and there's also times where some customers think that i'm japanese and start talking abt me in front of me while i'm pouring tea! eg. this couple came in,

girl said: this girl looks quite pretty.

(obviously i was flattered~ acted as though i dont understand)

guy said: are u blind?

(=_____=).....

*slap*!! 

jokes~ 

occasions such as these are good to keep in mind. hahaha.. but one thing's for sure, i regret starting work right after i graduated, coz i didnt get to spend time with my parents. oh and new updates, i'm back home~ permanently. decided to do so from the last trip back to msia. honestly, i miss aust, adelaide especially although most ppl would say "WHY?!" lol its full of memories! thats why, and its not boring at all actually, i've grown to love that place. up until now, i still feel like going back, but then i'd miss msia instead. lol ohwell, i've made my decision, and plus, i've recently accept a job over here and it's paying me well, its in PJ, away from KL and the crazy jam, hehe.. and i dont have to look for parking. position, project sales executive, but idk, might be doing marketing as well, was told by my manager, lets just see how it goes. still nervous, excited mostly, but cant exactly rush into things. sadly, i'm actually in the office right now. LOL! on a saturday, yes. its one of their requirements for a new staff, probation period. but it's more relax on saturdays, just gotta meet walk in customers, and other than that, fb? and blog? shh.. =x pfft!

another thing that has been on my mind these days, is the past relationship i was in. hmm.. i was really curious on what was that feeling i feel for u now, cant really put it into words honestly. but one thing's for sure, u will not be forgotten. i guess its coz of how much i loved u, how stubborn i was, and how much u've hurt me. but thank you, for opening my eyes, there's nothing more important than my family and friends right now, and i plan to stick it that way. =) sometimes looking back isn't such a bad thing, u just needed to see how far u went, in order to remind urself that nothing in future can be worst, and know that u can get through any obstacles. speaking of looking back, meeting a long lost ex does make u look back at those good times and bad times. just recently bump into one in a friend's open house, and it was good fun. we were able to talk and laugh abt the past on those silly things we did. idk whether he did it to make me regret, or just the sake of us having good memories together. doesnt matter, coz its not like we're gonna meet often anymore. we've drifted apart, have our own group of friends, own life. he would also be someone i'll never forget. someone i'll feel something for, something that cant be explained. names we used to call each other, places we used to go, bits and pieces all around that would remind me of him. i know he was always spreading rumors around, those that arent nice to hear, news travel fast, and i'm proud to say that i didnt need to do anything for ppl to believe me. well, there are probably some that didnt, but that just means they are blind, and i dont intend to try and persuade them coz i believe that everyone has their mind of their own, and we're old enough to think instead of just blindly follow. also, through this is where i find my true friends. whom u know, that without saying a word they'll stand up for u. touched, really.. =) 

which reminds me of the time a friend of mine told me, sometimes u need to prove urself, stand up for urself in order for ur friends to stand up for me or to believe me. i really disagree with it, not that it didnt make sense, i know its a way of keeping friends i treasure. although i dont do anything to prove myself right to my friends, doesnt mean i dont care or dont treasure my friends, no. it just means that i believe they should know me well enough, believe in me without their own assumptions and judgments. even if they dont believe me, at least be a true friend to confront me, and listen to my part of the story and then its up to them to conclude which is true. why would i want to beg, or voice out when they already made up their mind? believe me, i've tried many times to convince, but it gets tiring when it keeps happening. so, i'm sorry. if i'm going to be the only one trying to work things out, then u can count me out. coz i really dont wanna waste my time if u're not willing to make a move.