secret shh.. haha

if u've been in my facebook, u should know that im upset, again. furious in fact! thanks to my BELOVED bf of mine, he was o' so smart to invite a certain guy, to join us in our penang trip when we come back from adelaide. that certain guy has done some, and repeatedly, unspeakable stuff that i will never, EVER forgive. things that NO one will have second thoughts about. things that what ever reasons he give, its full of fucked up crap, and there is no way in HELL can he find a reason for doing it.

i know my smart bf, somehow had to call him to join. first reason is, mayb, cause vern has been asking him to join us for our previous trips and that guy couldnt make it and told vern that he will make it for the next one, which is this trip? mayb? annd, second reason is, which i think it is, cause that guy, is currently mixing with vern's group of friends back home. so vern has to invite him, since he is still vern's friend. third reason, its cause vern doesnt givadamn abt my feelings [full-stop].

i just found out that, in the past, that guy thinks i have attitude problem, and he sent my friend a msg, asking her to forward it to me, as if she was the one that think so, leaving him out and he doesnt need to get his hands dirty. come on, u got a problem with me, tell it to my face lar mthrfckr! u no ball is it? or u just wanna create trouble for me and my friend? which i think so. mcb! and oh the most hilarious part is, while i was arguing with the friend of mine, cause i was really hurt that she thought so, he can actually act like he is some outsider trying to fucking help us! no wonder when i asked my friend why she think so, what did i do to make her think so, she couldnt answer, and kinda gave me a really stupid answer actually but yeah u get the idea. [sorry friend! haha.. u know who u are.] and in the end, my friend didnt know that he called me, or tried to b the middle "angel", untill we talked abt it. wow, imagine, if i didnt wonder why she thought i had a problem, and if i didnt ask her, i would still AT LEAST think that YOU, yeah u asshole mthrfckr! i would still think that YOU could actually be a FRIEND! despite of what u did! despite of all those horrible stuff u did! seriously! i m sooo! doing u a favor in not telling anyone else abt ur dark secret! so do ME A FAVOR! DONT go penang, DONT let me see u.. DONT let me even hear ur voice mthrfckr! cause if i do, im afraid ur lil secret will b out. and i know of all ppl, YOU wouldnt want that to happen RIGHT?? so pls do me and u a huge favor and fuck the hell off!

oh and, if u're gonna tell me again that u've changed? and ask me why wouldnt i forgive u? and why should i care? since it did not happen to me? the answer is, im a human being! i have feelings, i have love! i love my friends! is that good enough for u? and i will never forgive u, bcause it wouldnt change a thing! even if i somehow find the heart to forgive u, i will never ever forget! and, even if u've changed, so what! u still did it. it is unspeakable that u've done it! and for u to ask for forgiveness! lemme tell u something u once told my friend, u DONT ask for respect, u EARN it. mthrfckr! sounds familiar huh? but mine's abit different, u wan forgiveness, for what u've done? NEVER!

if it wasnt for my friend, ur lil secret would b out when i first hear and seen! what u've done wayyy wayyyy before i left m'sia. and plus! u did it once, u did it twice, i cant imagine how many time she just let it slip away! how many chances do u fucking want?? and for this unspeakable crap u've done, u got away with it! u made it out without even a single strand of hair being cut off or pulled out! and yet, leaving my friend with a scar! u think u've learnt from ur mistakes? let me tell u, the way i see it, u definitely have not! look at the way u're acting! actions speaks louder than words mrthfckr! oh and fyi, when u tell people that there are two sides to a story, stop making up ur own stories to make u sound make ppl pity u, or mayb, just mayb, u think they are that dumb that what ever u say, they will believe every word? haha.. if they do, good for u, but i pity them for believing or have the thought of pitying u.

ppl that are listening, or in this case, reading, u hear me, if i see him, i'll write it anywhere i can find a place to write. cause i kinda, have a green light to do so. lol for the record, i've never hate a person before in my entire life, but you just broke that record. oh and i wont be writing this kinda msgs everywhere if im not certain of it. cause, if im wrong, come and get me! oh wait, come and get me when i come back to msia! haha! sorry u have to wait mthrfckr, NOT!

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